I have been so blessed by the beautiful responses of several fellow AoH adopting families who are facing very difficult situations with their adoptions.  I am just awed and inspired by their hearts of trust and peace in the middle of the swirling storms that surround them.  Oh, that I would respond like that!  I want to!…  I would like to think that is how I would respond… but I know that it’s one thing to acknowledge in my mind how I should respond… it’s another matter entirely to actually walk it out with such deeply gracious responses to disappointment and uncertainty — standing strong in faith and trusting when the way is cloudy and the path unsure.  These awesome families are living the testimony of blessing the Lord’s name equally in abundance and lack, responding beautifully without bitterness or resentment.  I just touched the tip of this when I lost my first baby. It was phenomenal how much peace there was in letting my questions go and trusting the Lord even in the midst of the grief.  It is a difficult but beautiful process to learn to say like Mary, “Be it unto me, Lord, according to Thy word.”

Jamie Z. wrote me a comment along these lines that just amazed and blessed me — it is poignantly honest and inspiring and worth reading!  Her words are beautiful, written from personal revelation and will ring true in your heart.

God knows what we each can handle… and He has promised that we will not be tested beyond what we can bear (1 Cor. 10:13.) But He does not promise that life will be easy.  He gives each of us different paths at different seasons, and sometimes those paths are darker and steeper than we were prepared for.

When I first started rock climbing, God used an aspect of climbing to paint an illustration that remains with me vividly.  Every climb (line) up the rock has a “crux” — a point of extreme difficulty.  The crux can come at the beginning of the climb, or at the middle, or end.  Each climb’s crux is different, but each is equally the most difficult segment of that particular line.  I realized that in life as I “climb my line,” I can’t compare my crux to anyone else’s, because it’s mine alone to climb…  I can’t complain about mine being more difficult, or look next to me and imagine that someone else has it easier because their crux came earlier when they had more energy and mine has me as I struggle for strength at the end.  God hand-picked my line and knew where the crux was before I began.  My response to it is the determining factor as to whether I will finish the climb well.  Will I falter and lose my focus?  Will I become overwhelmed and release my hold? Will I compare my climb to another’s and argue that it is unfair?  …or will I keep my eyes on the top and reach beyond what I think is possible to master the line? Will I respond with faith and perseverance?

That is what these families are demonstrating so clearly (and what many, many other families have shown as well) — they are climbing faithfully at the most difficult point in the line… they are responding to the crux of the situation with a trust that will enable them to climb higher… and to exceed their previous abilities, regardless of the outcome.  They are acknowledging the Lord’s sovereignty and trusting His goodness no matter where the road leads…   

I am blessed by their responses.  I am inspired.  But my heart aches for them and I feel such a burden to pray for a release in each situation.  I am standing with them in faith that God can and does move mountains in response to our prayers, so I am praying FERVENTLY on their behalf.   

Here are the links to their blogs if you aren’t aware of their situations.  Please take a moment to join them on their climb and pray for encouragment as they reach for that next hold.